There is more poetry than prose
here.
I
wonder why. I sigh
and I wonder
why.
Why, when for so long I bathed page after page in phrase after phrase, paragraphs streching across the plane, do I now find myself breaking
off
words here and there
letting
them
fall vertically, like
something you watch
slipping off the edge of a building
or
a cliff?
A body, perhaps, or
a leaf.
I once wrote a single word in pencil on a papery brown leaf. And that word became more beautiful to me than any other word I've ever written or read.
One.
Word.
Only mathematicians and scientists can truly appreciate a poem for its challenging angles and meter. Measuring it's shape and depth with special tools that have names I can write but not pronounce.
What happened to the story I was telling about my love affair with poetry? What will prose say when she finds out that all long my love for her was preparing me for my love for the other? Him? Her tears will be made of the wind that pushes down power lines and trees. Leaves falling everywhere, and sparks spitting off wires in a crisp, orange glow. Have I yet, successfully, measured meaning and expressed it to you clearly in chart-- a graph, a diagram? Why do you return to me, here, you ask, within the framework of a poetic form? "You had no where else to go from falling, being too far from the building to reach out to a ledge or rail. Your body lands here," I say. Here, where I will bleed to death. There will be red on your pages now. "You are wrong about me. I would never let you die, not in the story I tell. In my story you are a hero with wings that, until just now, you didn't know you had." I am your fallen-- "No, not fallen, falling. You are my falling--" Angel.
From one angle
it seems
from another
it is
Not many can tell the difference
anymore.
Not even the engineers with their unpronounceable tools.
What tool makes the shape of this
less
awkward?
The word: window.
Through which I watched you wonder at each word, your fingers hesitating to strike a key. You could never decide between SPACE or ENTER.
Yes, I remember you there, hovering in the space between the sill and the pane, but even when I whispered your name, sending soft words out onto the wind, you would never
ENTER.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
I'm Not Real
Listening to music while walking, life becomes a movie. The street, the set. The wind, fans spinning at high speeds behind me, messing my hair. The people I pass, characters, extras to set the scene while the credits roll. The leaves fluttering like butterfly wings can't be real, nor I. My glossy lips closed, the calm look on my face, the quick pace to my step, the corners of my mouth turning up just slightly to smile, acknowledge the presence of a man and a woman in business suits a few feet down from the entrance to The City Center, each cupping a hand around the end of a cigarette. I don't hear the click of the lighter, but I see the flame appear, rising just above their C-shaped hand, and the definition in their cheekbones as they take in the drag. And every movement of every extra, every swing of my arms and step forward, every line of cars that pass seemingly so silently become filled with meaning interpreted by the music moving through tiny speakers and into my mind.
I begin to think of myself as a character walking in and out of people's lives as I pass. What does the wind look like pushing my short hair forward, up, sideways, a few strands in my face?
I begin to think of myself as a character walking in and out of people's lives as I pass. What does the wind look like pushing my short hair forward, up, sideways, a few strands in my face?
Monday, October 25, 2010
Letter
I have not yet opened the letter
you gave me.
It sits on my desk beside the keyboard
I am typing a letter to you upon.
I know what you will say, what
you have said already, what
you want me to know, but
there are many pages there, and
before I read your words, before
I am influenced by your lines
I must sit and type this to you,
ma cherie amour.
I lift the pages you have sent me,
4 small pieces of paper folded in 3.
A light, but felt weight in lifting.
A word I catch in the middle of a paragraph:
"Forever"
Another:
"Never"
And the phrase:
"What did you imagine we'd become?"
You see, I need not read more. I need
only finish my letter to you, fold it in three,
place the single page in an evelope,
and toss it into the fire place,
let the flames lick the seal,
burn through each word,
and turn to cool ash your pages
and mine.
you gave me.
It sits on my desk beside the keyboard
I am typing a letter to you upon.
I know what you will say, what
you have said already, what
you want me to know, but
there are many pages there, and
before I read your words, before
I am influenced by your lines
I must sit and type this to you,
ma cherie amour.
I lift the pages you have sent me,
4 small pieces of paper folded in 3.
A light, but felt weight in lifting.
A word I catch in the middle of a paragraph:
"Forever"
Another:
"Never"
And the phrase:
"What did you imagine we'd become?"
You see, I need not read more. I need
only finish my letter to you, fold it in three,
place the single page in an evelope,
and toss it into the fire place,
let the flames lick the seal,
burn through each word,
and turn to cool ash your pages
and mine.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
More Reasons for More Woods
More words make more woods.
More trees. More leaves. More branches
reaching toward sun, sky, and one
another.
More words make more mistakes.
More wounds. More angry silences,
walking through more woods with more
thoughts
on reasons why one misplaced syllable makes
so strange the sound of a word.
What were the words again
that hurt me so that I slammed the door
hard to emphasize the sound
of my anger
and went walking
barefoot in the grass, bending
to touch water trickling over
large, moss-covered stones,
gathering dry sticks for kindling
and thick logs?
Returning, I say: Here are the limbs
and logs I gathered
to re-kindle the fire that surely
must by now be nearly going
out.
More trees. More leaves. More branches
reaching toward sun, sky, and one
another.
More words make more mistakes.
More wounds. More angry silences,
walking through more woods with more
thoughts
on reasons why one misplaced syllable makes
so strange the sound of a word.
What were the words again
that hurt me so that I slammed the door
hard to emphasize the sound
of my anger
and went walking
barefoot in the grass, bending
to touch water trickling over
large, moss-covered stones,
gathering dry sticks for kindling
and thick logs?
Returning, I say: Here are the limbs
and logs I gathered
to re-kindle the fire that surely
must by now be nearly going
out.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Letters to Penelope
I had plans for this morning. A bicycle chain to replace. Leaves to burn. A letter to write to Penelope. Plans to work with my hands, lifting, re-attaching, opening and closing. I wanted to write the letter last, as a reward for all of my hard work, to relax. But the telephone rang while I was drinking coffee and reading the local paper. The telephone rang just as I finished the sentence: ...told authorities that writing the suicide note was her way of coping with "the tragic event."
Elementary Mathematics and Language Arts & Crafts
Opening and closing my hand
I feel words forming in them
The last bright star at the end
of the day goes down, down, down.
Now the entire town is orange and
on fire
Each letter melts like an M&M
I am the S to my M, and U
is between them, not "them"
"Them" sandwiches E.
He could have said anything
and I would have opened and closed my mouth
over his.
The clock blinks midnight in red.
It's a new machine, not yet set.
I have a word in my hand for you
and some numbers, too.
Will you, will you recieve them now, or me?
I am in the service of M,
but U is before, and I am S
Some of us crouch down to pick up
a torn piece of notebook paper from blacktop or
concrete sidewalks, then read the words.
I cut out and count each letter as they fall.
I keep a small pair of children's scissors in my back pocket
and a pocket notebook tucked between
my arm and side.
I rearrange the letters, dismantling their orignal meaning
to mean something new, something else, something
other than what they meant once.
And once the recreation's complete
I read them aloud to people crossing streets
at intersections, or counting down the blinking
red hand and numbers.
I feel words forming in them
The last bright star at the end
of the day goes down, down, down.
Now the entire town is orange and
on fire
Each letter melts like an M&M
I am the S to my M, and U
is between them, not "them"
"Them" sandwiches E.
He could have said anything
and I would have opened and closed my mouth
over his.
The clock blinks midnight in red.
It's a new machine, not yet set.
I have a word in my hand for you
and some numbers, too.
Will you, will you recieve them now, or me?
I am in the service of M,
but U is before, and I am S
Some of us crouch down to pick up
a torn piece of notebook paper from blacktop or
concrete sidewalks, then read the words.
I cut out and count each letter as they fall.
I keep a small pair of children's scissors in my back pocket
and a pocket notebook tucked between
my arm and side.
I rearrange the letters, dismantling their orignal meaning
to mean something new, something else, something
other than what they meant once.
And once the recreation's complete
I read them aloud to people crossing streets
at intersections, or counting down the blinking
red hand and numbers.
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